everywhere i turn, it stares me in the face. even without the external pressure, i feel the stress within me. constantly on my mind, with no respite. have i not been proactive enough? too picky? do i perform badly? or is it just my misfortune to spend 4 years, and emerge in a period of economic depression, with the usual target industries not hiring? it makes that piece of paper so worthless.

can only silently scream my head off, cause i don't know how to verbalise the frantic feeling in me. apply, wait, and hope.